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Aye Zindagi Hui Kahan Bhool...

"Aye zindagi hui kahan bhool jiski humein mili ye saza, kahan se kahan laayi tu humein, hum se hai tu kitni khafa.."


Whenever I hear these lines in Kishore Da's poignant voice, a pierce goes right through my heart, and suddenly, I don't feel anything, just numbness all around.


Life is really uncertain. Sometimes I feel everything is falling apart, and sometimes, it feels like I am making progress every second. I knew about this for years, but now this has become a constant in my life.

 

I don't know what life wants exactly, good relations, money, happiness, sadness, pleasures, pains? There are so many things to do but so little time. And I really don't know what to achieve and what to lose.


There are just way too many things to do than gazing over the night sky without worrying about anything. There was a time when I just used to walk on the roof for hours listening to the songs, and watching the night sky, stars, and moon. But now, I keep reminding myself of everything that needs to be done.


"Taaron ko dekhte rahen chhat par pade hue.." - Become a distant dream.




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