Wednesday, 16 November 2016

The saddest love story!!

You were always an unknown person. You liked yourself to remain a mystery, didn't like to share anything about you with anyone. Your joy, your pain, your suffering, your happiness were always untold. And this was the way you had been living your life. A simple but precious life.
Then one day, a person walks into your life. They don't just want to talk to you, they want to know you. They want to know all your secrets, all your troubles, all your likings. They want to unfold the mystery. They ask you, what happened that day, you looked desolate. They ask you, what makes you sad, what makes you happy, are you alright?
Suddenly your life revitalized. Now you are not that mystery to everyone, there is a person who knows everything about you. There is a person who is crazy about you.There is a person who loves you. And then you cannot survive a single day without sharing a thing or two about yourself to that special person.
Now you came to know about a different type of joy that you had never experienced before.
You are happiest.
One day, that person decides to leave. Decides to not to continue knowing you anymore, not to continue loving you anymore. Suddenly your life has taken a back, that special person is not around you anymore. That person has gone now. Everything becomes still. Now again you are alone, there's no one around you to share a thing or two about yourself.  You are unable to hear the sound of the wind, the waves which you have always rejoiced
But now you don't want to be a mystery. Now you do like to share things about you. Now you want to be loved, to be cared. Unfortunately, you again become an unknown person.

Monday, 12 September 2016


Today when we were having snacks at office canteen. A newly joined girl in our group( a bunch of friends having the same experience as me, we take lunch and snacks together) told us that she got engaged and soon she'll be getting married. Every other girl were like aw wwwww!!!! woww!!!, show us pictures of him, where is your ring? where will you going to get married? Is it arranged or love? What will you going to wear? Where will you go for honeymoon? Oh! that ghagra is beautiful. Aren't you lucky to get marry near a sea in puri.
And then she said her fiance is from IIT and currently working in a startup and planning to create his own company, everyone's face was just light up and all were like oh wow you are one lucky girl.

There is nothing wrong in this the yet to be bride was happy and every girl was happy listening to her.
But what concerns me that none of the girls asked her these, How good the guy is? What's his nature like? Do you love this guy? Do this guy loves you? Are you sure this guy will make you happy all through the life? Are you sure that this is the one?
Well, I guess these questions did not matter the most at least for the girls in our group.

I was just sitting there pretending I am not hearing anything and concentrating on eating Dosa and chutney only though I was listening everything ;) I so actually wanted to ask above questions to her, questions that didn't matter the most. But I decided to refrain myself from asking.

I was listening and at the same time, I was thinking about my marriage too. What will be like when I'll get marry. Will she love me forever? Will I love her forever?

In this article, I am about to talk about marriages. Believe me, if anyone of my friends ever read this then I'll be a dead man. They'll make fun of me like they have never done before. But what the hell.
I actually love to talk about marriage and relationship stuff.

So that new girl is getting married near a sea in puri. And where I want to get married well suppose
if I am having the sole responsibility of choosing the location and my soon to be wife is okay with it then probably I'll choose the nearest registrar office. Realize that marriages are not shows they are mere beginning and beginnings are always humble not extravagant period. But that's not going to happen right? My soon to be wife will not at all accept this. But I definitely do not want to spend lots of money on the wedding. Spending lakhs of rupees on some people we barely know, try to impress others by choosing costliest marriage halls. It just doesn't make sense to me. We should be spending that money on ourself only like we can spend on our honeymoon ;).

I want to love my wife I want to love her forever. I am single and not sure if I'll be having an arrange or love marriage but whatever it may I do want to make sure one thing that I should love my wife and she should love me too. As this way, we'll start our new journey together with love.

I know how to cook and one reason why I learned this art is because I really want to help my wife in cooking and doing the dishes. I don't want to be those husbands who watch tv sitting on sofa impatiently waiting for food and after food doesn't even think about the dishes at all.

I want something like this
"Me and wife we both will be working people, we'll work our ass off throughout the day and then in the night at around 9pm I'll reach home at the same time she'll be reaching home, then we'll start making dinner together, she'll make rotis ;) and I'll make sabji. And I'll ask her how was your day? then she'll start telling me about her day and I'll keep myself busy in making sabji and listening to her. And if I'll get a chance ;) I'll let her know about how my day went. After the hectic day at work this would be our time of the day. and then we'll eat together and after that I'll do the dishes and she'll clean the kitchen".

I know I think a lot above imagination is too much right? But I like to imagine this. We'll be so happy.

Marriages are not jokes. How people got married so casually is something I can never understand. Most of the marriages in India are happening because the boy is rich or the girl will give more dowry or because the girl is getting older at her 23. Facepalm. or simply because the parents want. Such a pathetic way to start a new journey in life.

I am sure that I don't want to start my journey like this. I will do everything to not to marry this way.
I do want to marry because I am in love with yet to be my wife because she is the one because I'll never get tired to make her happy because she loves me too and because we both cannot wait to spend rest of our life together.
But who knows what we'll happen as love is hard to come by. I am not sure if I'll ever find love but still I love to imagine :)

Have you heard the song "yeh ghar bahut haseen hai" such a beautiful song this is.
In the movie the husband lives in a small house, the wife is from a rich family she loved the husband so she'll agree to live in that small house as she knows that they might don't have a big house or a big car they definitely have LOVE and with that small yet large like universe love "yeh ghar bahut haseen hai", "this home is beautiful".

I want my married life just like this song. There is a line "Humare ghar na aaegi kabhi kushi udhar ki" "Borrowed happiness will never come to our house". Such a beautiful line Isn't it?

Tuesday, 26 July 2016

Happiness is Rain

These days are going quite rough for me. I don't understand why life always gives me lemons all the time and I still can't make lemonades out of them. I run for happiness and all I could get is just the same old familiar sadness. Maybe this is all I am doing wrong, I am running for happiness, I should just let it come to me. But then again I ponder that trying is everything if you don't try for something how you are supposed to get it? Maybe I am running for the wrong kind of happiness. Maybe happiness is just in front of me but the one for which I am running could be a fake one. 
Then again a voice comes from my think tank, Is life is all about achieving happiness or one can live a beautiful life with sadness also? 
Don't you think life is extremely complicated and we waste our whole life understanding it? We even go beyond and try to control it. Somewhere we know that we can't actually understand life but even though we try to understand it, we try to control our life. 
Life is uncertain. It's never going to go as you please. But we always try to prove that we are so humans by making a false attempt controlling it.
Bad things are definitely going to happen. People will leave, you will hate your job, nobody will love you, some people will despise you, you won't be getting that thing for which you are struggling to get for so long. All you'll want is love and all you'll get is hate. You won't be satisfied with what you have, you'll hate yourself.
And just like that bad things list is getting so large. 
As I have said these days are rough for me. I am struggling a lot. Nothing seems to be going right. 
For the past few weeks, I am staying late at the office. And every day I leave for home at around 11 or 11:30 pm and sometimes even 12.
I work in an IT company and lives in thane. But these days I am loving going late for home. You may be thinking I am so weird or even psycho. Not so sure about psycho :P but yes I am a weird creature. Some people says I am from Mars. So why I like going late for home? Maybe for this..

This a pic of a way to home. Home is 2 km from work. And in the night I always prefer walking to home. 
It's rainy season in thane and I am so loving this rain. It's always raining in thane. I just love the monsoon of Mumbai everything looks so green and you know I love to get wet in the rain and getting wet when nobody's watching is just a heaven for me.
So I prefer to walk home at night when people are at their home watching TV and spending time with their family. I just like to walk slowly and pray for rain just to get wet and enjoy it.
It gives me so much happiness. I savor every moment. Those 30-45 minutes are heaven for me and when it rains I feel like what more I can ask for. A sudden smile appears on my face.
I like the way to home. It's a treeline driveway. A way surrounded by trees at the sidewalks. I walk on sidewalks and beneath the trees. Walking beneath the trees in slow motion and watching the leaves, branches just above you as they move backwards sure feel like heaven. At night this looks amazing. Those yellow lights, a chill in the atmosphere, 
the sound of the wind whispering through the trees and of course the peace and your thoughts. No noise from vehicles, no pollution, and no one around. 
In those 30 - 45 minutes I get all the happiness for which I am running for.
Maybe that's why my friends say I am from Mars.

Friday, 6 May 2016

Hedgehog's dilemma

I like this fable a lot. This fable tells us about relationships and how would you describe the best relationship.  Sigmund Freud, father of  psychoanalysis has used this situation in the fable in his analysis of challenges of human intimacy.
This fable is about the dilemma faced by a group of Hedgehogs (Porcupines).

" It was the coldest winter ever.  Many animals died because of the cold. The porcupines, realizing the situation, decided to group together to keep warm.  This way they covered and protected themselves, but the quills of each one wounded their closest companions.  After a while, they decided to distance themselves one from the other and they began to die, alone and frozen.  So they had to make a choice: either accept the quills of their companions or disappear from the Earth.  Wisely, they decided to go back to being together.  They learned to live with the little wounds caused by the close relationship with their companions in order to receive the warmth that came from the others.  This way they were able to survive. "

Moral of the story: The best relationship is not the one that brings together perfect people, but when each individual learns to live with the imperfections of others and can admire the other person’s good qualities.

Relationships are complicated but with love, respect, sense of understanding about one another and that relationships are indeed complicated and require to do a lot of hard work to make it through, a beautiful Relationship can do wonders for the both individual.

Wednesday, 2 December 2015

Places I love the most..

These are some of the places that I totally in love with. I gain so much calm and peacefulness in these places. And the good thing is that to visit these places you don’t get charged.
  1.       Window Seats.
  2.        Beach - specially at night.
  3.        Gardens/Parks - specially at night.
  4.        Beach with a cliff behind me (Varkala beach).
  5.        Small alley with trees surrounding it.
  6.        Waterfalls.
  7.        Mountains Top.
  8.        A Cabin in the forest.
  9.    Underneath a tree

Friday, 14 August 2015

A beautiful Journey

That was a terrible day for me. I went to the city Bhopal by a Bus at morning to complete some documentation work of prime importance in an Government office but due to some reason it didn't work out well and till the evening I was devastated. I was sad and again boarded on a Bus to travel Home (Indore) at around 6:30 pm. It takes around 4 hours to reach at Indore. 
I worry a lot about my life. A lot of bad things happened before, things didn't work out the way I wanted to, well not everyone’s' life is a bed of roses. But I think about them a lot and make myself sad.
That night was quite different for me as I was experiencing something like this for the very first time.
It's august, monsoon is at its peak. Sun is quite shy these days, hides behind the clouds throughout the day. It’s been several days since the sunlight falls upon us. I don't like monsoon much. There's water everywhere. The road becomes sort of river and the "mud" is just the nature's way to irritate you to the core. You make plans and rain ruins them. I hate monsoon usually but that night it was different.
Just before starting my commute mother called, she said take an umbrella with you. On my way home, I was sad thinking about all the bad things again, they were flashing before my eyes like a motion picture. I was sitting on a window seat. Window seats are my favorite. It always amaze me how just sitting on a ordinary window seat you can actually have a look into your life. You can have your life’s reflection before you. It was quite a wonderful bus, Volvo AC bus. It has those large glass windows. I have liked that bus.  
At around 8:30 pm it started raining. It was dark outside. I was still about 2 hours from home. And then after a while it started raining heavily. It was like a storm. The wind was blowing like a tornado. I was watching through the glass window that how rain suddenly changes everything. View got blurry and like a lens. The lights in highways were appearing like they were dancing to the Elvis Presley's pop songs with blurriness all around them. I could see the lens flare effect on the lights outside. Trees appearing as they were breathing heavily. As if they were running from fear. The heavy droplets of water started bouncing back on the road feels like they were making synchronizing music. It’s fun to watch how they were bouncing back from the roof of the cars on the highway. The water droplets were now on the window's glass. I could really feel the chill in the atmosphere by placing my hand on the window. The bus was running at high speed, splashing the water on the road. Sometimes it splashes the water over the cars. Everything was beautiful.
I was enjoying this a lot. For the first time in my life I was thinking about all the good things that has happened to me. Good things are extremely less but yet I was enjoying every single of them. Realizing how precious they are. Giving you hope for forward journey in life. I was happy. I was happy with all my heart. Smiling every now and then. While watching heavy rainfall through the window of a travel bus, "life is beautiful", I thought.
At around 10:30, I reached Indore. The bus stopped at its bus depot and I needed to reach home that is situated around 9 Kilo-meters from there. The rainfall hadn't been stopped yet. It was raining like it has never rained before. As I was getting off the bus I pulled my umbrella open. I was still happy, smiling, feeling like dancing. And then suddenly I lifted off umbrella from over my head. I don’t really know why I did that. I wasn't just wetting myself I was feeling the rain. I was crazy that night. Around me, people were fearing the rain. They were taking shelters, using umbrella, raincoats. But not me though I was feeling it, I wasn't afraid of the rain that night. I wasn't afraid that I could catch cold, that my mobile phone wouldn't going to work, that my clothes would get wet. Walking in the rain with an open umbrella but not over my head, I asked myself, “Am I insane”. “You are the most sane person around”, replied the heart. As I had thought before, the roads were converted into rivers. There was water all around. It was about my knees. Yet I was walking in it without fear. My phone began to ring. My family members were getting worried about me they wanted me to get home safely. I don’t exactly wanted to go home as I was enjoying the rain but I took an auto rickshaw and reached home safely. That was the end of my short yet effective journey. 
That was very unusual to me. Usually I hate being wet in the rain. Something like this never happened in my life before. But I enjoyed it to the core. This made me realize something about life that the good and the beautiful things are not very far away from us they have been always around us and they always will be, we just have to find them. We should appreciate the good things that has happened to us time to time, they may be very few but still they guide us provide us hope for the better things to come.    
Reminds me of a quote from Harry Potter, “Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.”

Thursday, 16 April 2015

How to screw up your life?

1. Make someone else the center of your happiness. 
2. Live in the past.
3. Marry primarily for sex.
4. Study primarily for money.
5. Spend primarily to impress.
6. And when it all goes wrong, argue primarily to blame others.
7. Don't learn from your mistakes.
8. Care too much about what others think of you.
9. Try to please everyone. keep changing yourself just to impress others.
10. Chase your dreams but refuse to acquire the skills and techniques you require to achieve them. You will just fail over and over and look like a complete moron while doing it.
11. Use people. After you're done with them, they will expose you and tarnish your reputation, just like you used them for their abilities.
12. Lie. Every lie will eventually be brought to light, and you will be exposed for who you truly are. 
13. Refuse to open up to others. When you close yourself off to the world, you end up living a life full of loneliness. 
14. Look down upon others. When you feel that you are superior to others, people will walk out of your life or plot ways to take you down. 
15. Be greedy. When you are in it solely for yourself, people sense it. Friends will flock from you faster than sea gulls chasing after a piece of bread. 
16. Hold grudges. When you hold grudges, you become inept to forgiving others. Without forgiveness, you will always carry a burden of hate. 
17. Regret. Regret destroys everything about who you are. It limits your future. It fills you with depression and hopelessness.